A Man's Tough Choice

I am tired.

And sore.

And so over feeling that way.

I know others have it worse. I know others face worse pain, have more on their shoulders.

But fuck it, I'm allowed to want to end this. I'm allowed to not want to feel like this any more.

There's no easy fix, no silver bullet. A normal bullet would end It, I suppose, but I do still care about some other people.

So I'm not taking that route. So I guess it's just the one thing left to do.

But you know, it's so embarrassing to visit the doctor...